How I (Suddenly) Became an Infinite's Inspirit + A Piece of Advise on Pushing Yourself to Pursue What You Want + The Infamous Trial of a Fangirl to List Her Bias

How I became an Infinite's Inspirit so suddenly? HOW?! Wait, as I'm writing this I honestly don't know why and how I suddenly liked and later love Infinite. It's nothing like how I found out on Super Junior (I basically listened to It's You one day in 2010 and fell in love with it and automatically, it's SJ) so yeah, how did I became a sudden Inspirit?

It was end of last year that I wanted to know about Infinite. Why do people love Infinite? I was jealous with the ones who knew Infinite earlier than I do, so I was like, Why can't I remember their names but L? Actually, in the process of learning their names and etc., I actually not supposed to know who's supposed my bias until I know all of them (so it ain't L, sorry). So I made an assumption on why I only knew L's name but not the rest : He's the only one with a single letter 'L' as the name (and yeah, remember Death Note?), he's cute and there's something about his eyes that I can't comprehend plus his name is like Park Myungsoo, the variety show host, only L's surname is Kim.

But later I went to a DVD shop and saw Infinite's album and bought it. I actually have heard of their 2011 hits like Nehkkuh Haja (Be Mine) and Paradise and knew the songs by heart, yet I don't know the members. So after begging Mum to buy it (and yeah, she did) I listened to every song there was.

My brothers knew their names even earlier than I do (is it a guy thing?) so they started calling names like Sungkyu, Sungjong, Hoya and the rest and I knew that it was Infinite (because they were watching Infinite's vids, duh) so yeap. I made an initiative to learn their names so I got a copy of my favourite mag with their names there and study their faces so I can recognize them.

So yeah, I could recognize them all now. The thing is, how I fell in love with Infinite wasn't the same like how I fell for SJ. Firstly, I tried hard to know their names but for SJ I put on extra effort and a month of deprived nights so I could just learn their names. Secondly, I almost gave up on Infinite, but not on SJ. Thirdly, remember GDA 2010? I cried for SJ - like hell. But I don't even cry for Infinite.

See, the differences is actually nothing. I love SJ as much as I love Infinite, but of course I stan for the fifteen boys more. It's just that, the effort I gave to Infinite is just like, maybe 50% but on SJ, 110%.

Speaking of effort, I want to give a piece of reminder to everyone. I'm actually not the kind of girl who actually give my everything for something I want (LOL) but yes, this is a reminder to myself and to everyone - put on lots of effort on things you want to do.

Like, I just gave an example on how I badly I wanted to know about SJ and Infinite. That was the thing that wanted, and I have finally learned them. Yes, and that was what I wanted. Now, of course there are other things that I wanted but it's even more crucial than K-pop (as K-pop's for leisure) and it's the matter of my future and life which is to ace SPM.

SPM is like, the highest point of every 17 year old Malaysians - only they realize it or not. I just realized how important it is and how freaking fast the exam is getting nearer and nearer. I'm scared now, but yeah, all I cared is K-pop and J-pop.

You should know what is crucial in your life so that you can do better in it. It doesn't mean that my SPM's in November and now it's already March and I still have time for leisure and fun. Of course there's leisure and fun but there's a horizon that divides the reality and the 'fun stuffs'. For me it's pretty late already, but again, remember, with the right amount of effort and prayers (for me, I'm a devote Muslim) and it is never too late. Look around you. Some people were 'born' geniuses, but some take small steps to become geniuses, yet others never done anything to be genius. Probably with small steps, you could become a genius and who knows what's in store for you!

So lesson to be learned, though the seconds tick by, you must open your mind to think that there's a path that is made for you to succeed and you'd only get to reach the path's entrance with working harder. It is never too late to cover up what you've missed (and what I missed is like, a lot) only with working harder.

So yeah, that was serious, but now, let's get to the fun stuff!

As you know, as a K-popper, I think that every male K-Idols are my boyfriends, fiancee and future husbands, yet as a FANGIRL, I gotta realize that they don't know me and I don't know them in real life either. Yet, it's not a harm to adore and ship and love and more love you biases, no?

So welcome to Qila's Infamous Trial to List Her 20 Top Biases of Japan and Korea!

1. Eunhyuk, cause he's in Super Junior and he looked hot since 2010 (Sorry Sorry)
2. Sakurai Sho, I don't know, I guess I'm smitten with geniuses?
3. Leeteuk, I love dedicated leaders, haha.
4. Onew, he may not love anyone but his fried chicken, we can't deny that he's cute, careless and his 'Onew Condition' are absolutely funny. Wait, funny's his middle name.
5. Mir, everyone love some Engrish. How to pronounce WAFFLE? W-A-F-F-U-R. (P/S: Happy Birthday Mr. Engrish!)
6. Kyuhyun, for the sake that he was my first official bias. Ha.
7. Toma Ikuta, plainly talented and funny. Wait. His characters are.
8. Ninomiya Kazunari, he's Arashi's best gamer, like how is Kyuhyun of Super Junior.
9. Kim Soohyun, who doesn't love the lovable Song Samdong?
10. Eli Kim, I just love him... Cause he raps.
11. Matsumoto Jun, who doesn't love the most handsome of all Arashi?
12. Chansung, aka CHANANA.
13. Sungjong, okay, his eyes - rabbit eyes -  so cute!
14. Ryeowook, he's cute and sometimes, evil appears at certain times!
15. Haruma Miura, I just love Harumiu, I just simply love him.
16. Kai, he's from the new group EXO.
17. Shindong, I LOVE HIM, nuff said.
18. Alexander, he's so positive! I admire him!!!!
19. Im Jaebum / JB, he is so cool.
20. Key, I gotta love his piercings. Yeah.